Friday, March 31, 2006

Am I Advertising, or What?

So, What's this all about? You may be asking yourself, is this chick advertising for a date, or what? No, you might be thinking to yourself that EVERY single woman is always "trolling" for a man, or else she's gay.... Well, you're wrong. I've been married, and now I'm not. But I'm a long way from "desperate".
Tonight, this minute, what has me riled up is the fact that a friend of mine, strike that, a friend of my ex-husband was talking to me a couple days ago. When I think about it, I believe he was fishing for a response from me. He informed me that my ex-husband was using his truck because he'd finally decided to move in with his woman-friend. We've been divorced for 4 years, and he's been with her for 5 years, maintaining a separate apartment all this time, sort of a safety net, in case she kicks him out. Throughout a good portion of this time, he would often show up at my door and declare that they had parted ways and "offer" to stay with me for a night or so. Do I need to say here, THAT never happened? The so-called friend proceeded to tell me that the main reason the ex decided to move in with his chick was because he is getting older and he certainly doesn't want to end up growing old alone. Excuse me????? HE left ME when he decided that he needed to go out and "find" himself. Look where he found himself...
Yes, he is out of my life, and I say "good riddance", but I do admit that this relationship really "did me in" emotionally. I've had some dates over the past couple years, but I can't seem to get to second base... The trust was so shattered.... I've actually sent a couple guys back to their ex-wives! I know, I exaggerate, but just a little....
No, I don't need a shrink. Today is just a low kind of day. I'm proud to say that I'm really enjoying my life these days. I've learned to Kayak and have become rabid about it. I've also picked up my camera again, and am working on getting my stuff "out there". The house is coming along slow, but sure, and I love life! The reason the ex-husband thing was up front and center was because it just happened a couple days ago. Actually, when I was formulating the idea for this blog, I was thinking of ways to let people know that a forward-thinking woman is interesting and certainly a force to be reckoned with.
As the week and yes, the Month of March come to a close, I am checking my calendar to see how I will dole out my spare hours for the coming summer, dividing them between the water and my love of animals (I volunteer at the zoo, too!) My camera is almost always with me, and I heartily thank the inventor of the Digital Camera and HUGE memory cards!
I promise SOON to get my computer upgraded so I may post some of my wonderful images.
So, check in again soon, and I hope to entertain you further....